I can’t stop crying inside…
“My heart is crying a tear…free”
Verse 1:
Sometimes I feel like I want to die cause, I can’t fight whats inside no more, convincing myself, I loosened from a hold, but everytime that I move I feel pressure to explode, I’ve been broken free from these chains yes, but only to find that my wicked ways would lead me, back to the shackles I fled from, see I’m trying to express what I’m feeling so bare with me, the freedom, the cross, its there with me, but my cares, are impaired by the flair of an addiction, even with these bewares, and the cares of this conviction, see I feel like Job, but I aint half as innocent, cause I know my mistakes and my punishments, and now I’m giving in to what I hate, and most of yall can relate, to the fear of being marked nameless, with no identity, an outcast lasting only to see that your fantasies out massed their reality, and now the way you stand can’t fit with the standard, now you’re crippled trying to stand.
Hook:
Who am I, I feel like I’m meeting myself for the first time and pleased to meet me
Oh my, Oh my, I need you even more this time (2x)
Verse 2:
I now I want to cry it all out, and pour it all out and feel sorry for myself, and bully my thoughts like, “I ain’t gone ever change the way that I walk like, and I ain’t gone ever see the light to escape with”, I’m fed up, I want to take my heart and just break it myself, cause all it ever did was lie to me, but see it was me who put myself in those trenches, and it was Jesus who paid the price of my life’s expenses that were, to extensive for me to imagine, and I can’t even break this habit, that breaks me and feeds into this madness Lord, just break me and make me, pleasing to be viewed out the sight of what’s perfect, see you look past the surface of the hurt and the core of despair, and I’m hoping to sift out the unseen of what offends you and not doubt, I hope I don’t give out..
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Verse 3:
I’m so ashamed, I’m so hurt, and I’m trying to find peace, but I’m trying to find me, but searching has me lost, yo how supposed to find yourself, I’m looking dead in the mirror I can’t see nobody else, but I don’t recognize him and I can’t look away, he’s so hurt right now, his confusion is endless, Lord please, I don’t wanna look no more, cause he’s looking at me, and the blame is on me, yo how I’m supposed change me, I guess its true I can’t, and I don’t want to trust me, Lord you know I can’t, cause I hurt those that’s closest, and I don’t want to forfeit, I’m trying to keep my head up with this weight on my neck, and life done sped up, I hope that you can hear this cause hell won’t let up, my Savior Jesus, Jehovah Rophe I need you to change me, tame me and make me free…
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